I know this is going to sound odd. But I was listening to an good old song just now and remembering how much it meant to me in the past and how unlike many songs that I have linked with certain males, this one stands alone, without an emotional complication. I'm not sure if that's because of the male that is involved or if I'm finally growing up...or that this song just holds so much truth that it's beyond all that relationship bullshit and just is.

For some reason, I listen to it and I feel more like myself and that I know who I am, then I have in a long time. That also could be circumstantial and a sign that at 20, I may finally be showing some maturity.

I just thought I would put this out in the world, but if you want to form your own opinon go listen to it.

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Peace. xox

Whilst waiting for my soybeans to grow that last 1% (yes i am yet another sucker who has fallen to the lures of facebooks Farmville)I was thinknig I should do a new id. The only probelm with this is that my time is currently split into 3 sections...

Sleep- Which Im doing WAYY more then I should be

Procrastination- Which pretty much ranges from Farmville to helping my grandma set up for
her exhibition to planning my friends christmas presents.

And then Uni: which to be frank, im not doing all that much of laterly due mainly to the procrastination part.

Now doing a new ID would proably fall under the "Procrastination" title and so I need help in being conviced not to do one just yet...

I, Laura, bequeath all of my belongings, not including the books she already has, to Kat(*RohanElf), cos shes awesome.


-Laura (totally not *RohanElf I swear.)

It's kinda ironic how making a mistake can throw the brightest light on what you want the most. Or is it that when things begin to slip through our fingers, thats the moment we choose to hold on the hardest?
Its like in The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, when there is that whole sequence before Dasiy is hit by the cab, how if just one thing out of a hundred little things went differently then it wouldn't have happened.

I just wonder how much of life is like that. Now I try not to regret anything, coz really its just a waste of time, but sometimes there are things that you do and you turn around and go "Yea, that was stupid."
But the thing about stupid things, is you don't realise that you have fucked up until you do them. Until you realise that what you have just done may in fact change your lifes course...

So its a chicken-and-the-egg situation. What came first the mistake or the regret?

I know, I havent been uplaoding stuff as much as I would like, but that is the result of 2 things...

Number One being that I have just gotten back into Uni. That being the case, much of my time is spent researching pointless and frankly boring assignments.

Number Two being, until recently I have been quite without a camera. My lovely Minolta took a tumble from *RohanElf 's bed over the summer and I havent had the funds to get her repaired. Funnily enough, my little digi also too a tumble from my couch this time at the fault of my some what mentally disturbed cat.

Also, Im finding Im lakcing a little artistic drive so plllease...shoot your ideas at me! What do you want to see more of?